Sunday, September 11, 2011

On this day

Last year on this day I brought Vincent to the beach and we snuggled, splashed in the water, and played with hats.  I wrote this (as Vincent) on his Facebook page:
"We had a great, great day today!  Mom and Dad kept my tube plugs securely taped, and we went to the beach where I splashed my feet in the sand and waves.  Pictures to come shortly!"  
Vincent playing with Popo (Grandma) on 9-11-2010

I find it hard to believe that just one year ago today, I was taking pictures, cradling Vincent in his ergo baby carrier, and putting on sunscreen.  One year ago I had two car seats in the car, two sweet little boy bodies to hug, and two smiles at me in the rearview mirror.  I had diapers to change, feeding tubes to plug and fill, and medication to dispense.

Last year on this day I had both my children with me.

And exactly ten years ago I crowded with dozens of other frightened students in the lobby of our college library, listening to the blasting newscast (usually on mute) and watching in shock as the second tower was hit.

It's amazing how your whole life can change in a single day, whether it be from a cancer diagnosis, news of a relapse, a car crash, a natural disaster, a terrorist attack.  For those of you today who are grieving, I pray that you find peace and rest for your soul.


jess.modaff said...

Thanks for sharing this, Becca. Death is such a mystery to me (and you...and everyone), yet it is one of the most certain things. I just don't get that.

Yesterday (9/11/11) my student of 3 years passed away from a 2 1/2 year battle with cancer. One minute she was here, then she wasn't.

As I've said before, I find it interesting that we tend to mark the passing of time with births and deaths. I'd like to find a new marker. Like, say, "it's been 1 year since I've eaten at my favorite hamburger place," or "2 months since I've played Rachmaninoff on the piano."

(But I know this doesn't really work.)

Anonymous said...

Thanks for making me cry hard...again. Love you so much!

Anonymous said...

(((HUGS))) Rebecca....I remember reading about this very day on the Caring Bridge Journal page. I can't believe it's been a year already.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Rebecca said...

@ Jess: I'm so sorry to hear about the death of your student - how sad! I'm sure it must be hard for everyone who knew her... and I'd love to have another marker for passing time than deaths - perhaps the playing Rachmaninoff one? ...Although for me that would be a very long time... :)

@ Anita: I know! I can't believe it's been one year already. Crazy.

Jana said...

I'm sorry Becca, I wish I could give you a hug in person right now, but an internet one will have to do, (((((big hug!)))))